Thought.

"Tell me and I forget. Teach me and I remember. Involve me and I learn." - Benjamin Franklin

Ironic.

Was browsing through Youtube looking for old "Boy meets world" episodes and just thought it was ironic I would run into this one.. peep the date of the wedding toward the end of the episode. I miss this show !

Hapmo?

"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that everyone falls apart no matter how strong they pretend to be"

"Being HAPPY doesn't mean everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections."

I cant help but post these 2 quotes up. I cant stand reading my twitter and its filled with senseless "emo" banter that no cares about ! its almost a lost feeling that people turn to shun the other cheek whenever someone is on their "Emo shit" on twitter. Almost as if no one has ever felt the feeling of being broken or being unhappy, a feeling that no one wants to reach out and help someone stand up.

I myself am guilty of the forgetting these emotions of what I'd like to call terror and grief. I unfollow those who post nothing but shit from these various twitter accounts which were made to make them feel even more like shit ! posting #nowplaying songs that try to make it relate to themselves when the perticular song has absolute no meaning to their situation...... SMH !

Getting back to these quotes I've posted above.. I have said in 2 simple paragraphs how I hate seeing seeing such "downer" quotes. 2010 has been a year of trial of myself and progressing myself making myself better for that next step in life. Anyone that knows me will point out the changes I've made to finally put a smile back on my own face. So why the quotes you ask ? why concern myself with these quotes ? ..I found one on my friends facebook page Chris C. and the other quote I found when a friend of mine had mentioned it in a text to me just a couple days ago. It made me think for a little.

my thought ?

I'am that person that I hate !

Slow it down.

Good morning ! Haven't been up this early in such a long time. just had a few thoughts that on my mind that I wanted to voice out and speak about.

Recently I slowed it down a bunch from going out all the time and getting back to who I'm of just kickin' back with the homies and those closest to me, getting back to the elements and realities of "who I'm" as a person. Perception is everything.. For almost a year now ever since i started working at my current job, everyone has had the perception of me as a person that goes out all the time or someone enjoying the so called "good life" that Vegas has to offer. Don't get me wrong those are enjoyable moments and definitely a good time.. but it just wasn't me. I gave it a shot for a little while to kinda hash up the things I was going through at the time, and maybe change myself, telling myself that maybe I can live the rock star life that's available when I call for it. Its been fun, meeting new people seeing new things and experiencing somethings that previously Ive only experience with one other person. At the end of it all I just don't fit in that lifestyle. I found myself trying to change myself for the wrong reasons and ended up not liking myself for it.

So here's me...

Hello,
My name is Mico Velasco, I like playing basketball,I love music and girls in sweats and tank tops, I love the simple yet fun things in life and would rather just have an intellectual and deep conversation with my friends sharing our opinions on the world,rather than out and about destroying myself every night. I enjoy boring things like thinking of how the sunset on the coast of San Diego will be like in the morning. In an analogy I think I'm like the movie Napoleon Dynamite.. Something no one cared for to see at first but later picked it up on DVD and enjoyed it after they saw it. (had to toot my own horn there lol).

What made me think of writing this passage is what happened at my house the other night.. When the guys and I kick it we usually always talk big game of "Yo we have to get some females to come through and get our some some some on" yet every night we talk that same game.. The night always ends up fun, i think it was lexx and I or Justin and I that were talking at my house about how come even though We miserably fail at trying to try to do.. It always ends up being a really fun night ?! The only thought i ha on my mind as a response was because every ones personality in the room just makes a mood of fun. I'm not even talking about a big group of people, literally theres a solid core of 5 of us that kick it every Monday and Tuesday at my house that just make a night of good times.

Its funny because I turn up a song from the Little Brother album called the minstrel show the other night and Justin was like "is this the whole album" quickly to his excitement and next thing you know he and I are vibing to this song and that energy gets to the others in the room and quickly they go "who is this singing this song ?" I'm glad that everyone enjoyed something so old that it felt new again ! I posted a lyric of the song of facebook and twitter not to long after we were listening to the song and sure enough the hip hop crazies on the net showed up lol.. here is the the first..

"Cheatin" - Little Brother




This next one was the one that after it played everyone was vibin' to..

"Slow it down" - Little Bother


"Sometimes I think I'm from another world (preach)
When I'm trynna tell a woman just exactly where I stand that (aight)
I want a girl, when I want a girl
And when I don't want a girl, I want a girl who understands that
And that's some hard shit to explain
To a woman that's in love with you, it's a pitiful thing
Until I had to figure
That I don't wanna play around, but I don't wanna settle down
And that's a man's dilemma, 'cause every man remembers
How his daddy and his uncles did it
'Cause more than likely that's the way they're gonna do it
I know it sound fucked up and most wont admit it
But yo, I gotta face it 'cause I know I'm living through it
'Cause when the party stops and niggaz get old
And the chain and the cars and the houses get sold, and that
Other side of the bed gets cold, you don't wanna be alone
So girl I'm trynna hold you.."

Good Day to all,
Mics

Humility.

Being a Filipino in the U.S was always something I never liked representing. Its different seeing state side Filipino's and how their raised compared to the way Filipino's are brought up back home where I'm from 13 years of my life.

Some of the reasons why I hate Filipino's is the U.S is because majority of the filipino's I've met in the U.S have been the same story over and over.. greedy, flashy, no manners.. the list goes on and on (I myself will admit that I've been that way at a point, but always kept in check by my mother). The filipino I know was the complete opposite of that mold.

On his trip to New York to meet with Pres. Barack Obama I'm so glad that something so innocent as eating a New york stand hot dog can be done by President NoyNoy Aquino of the Philippines. To most people will just see a well of man having a hot dog on a street corner. To me it means so much more, It shows that you dont need all these flashy things or show me something I could care less for. It shows a sign of Humbleness. It shows Hope that there are still people in the world that enjoy the small but fun things in life. Today makes me proud to say I'm Filipino !

Sometimes you have to..

Man this summer has been rough ! from work slowing down during the summer to experiencing new things in life and growing and learning from those lessons its definitely been a tight stretch.

Its crazy school is here again and once again Im playing the role of procrastinating student, never the less Im back in school.. Its kind of bitter sweet for the situation because I know the benefits of the work when it comes to fruition but at the same time Im just not a school type person.

Work has been well work.. What I once enjoyed overly at times has become a bit of a challenge. Money has been right but just the overall feel has been sort of different.

The experience of moving out for the first time was definitely something new.. paying my own bills (power. water. gas. rent) was something new all i was used to was paying for was my own cell phone bill, insurance and occasionally helping my brother and sister with what they need.

Recently I just moved into a house back on the southside of Vegas with Glenn and Jio. It'll be fun definitely with all 3 of our personalities in the house, I really wanna see how we co exist in the house. Glenn being the more outgoing of the 3 of us and the mindset he has of paper chaser right now definitely brings a good persona to the house. Jio being the responsible out of the 3 of us definitely looks out for the best interest of the other 2 on the house (Glenn and I). Me ? I guess you can call me the balance to Glenns wildness, to sum it up Im the guy in the background that watches everything.

My car finally gave out after all this time (what a suprise right ? lol) the last 3 weeks have been tough having no car for the first time since high school ended its been rough depending on other people for rides instead of the usual of me being depended on for rides. hopefully if everything goes well like it has ill be able to get a new car by the end of this week or early next week. (Thanks to all the people that have bared with me throughout this whole process)

As some of you know a certain someone decided to call and end to the relationship I had.. I dont blame her though I would've probably done the same thing she did now that I think about it, She deserves more ! ..anyway never have a felt more lonely at any point till about 4 months ago when I realized I really dont have any more solid concrete friendships. I started clubbing and yea I developed some great relationships and networked along the way but that just wasnt who Im. I really dint hit up anyone to much because my schedule it revolved pretty much around my job and its all I do until recently with school starting back up. Shouts to everyone that decided to pick up the phone when I called because I needed someone to kick it with on my level.. more chill and just kick back talk about life and such.

So yea.. my summer definitely could've been better but I wont trade it for anything, all these experiences, feelings, lessons, knowledge I've gained have definitely opened my eyes to what I should be doing to improve things for myself. Developing goals and striving harder to reach them is definitely something Im going to pursue a little more seriously.

This is one of the Projects on the Horizon.. shhhhhh !


..You'll soon understand what thats about ;] ..thats all Im allowed to say by my partners right now.

Im going to take something a person once said and told me I have great business savy and see how right she was..

Peace Love Happiness,
Mics

Bummer.

These last 3 months have hasnt been the greatest but it hasnt been the worst but for some reason its had my mind going a million and a half miles an hour ! gees ! someone give me a hug please !!! anyway.. gotta run and talk to broski.. more on this later !!

Legit !

This vid is for the song "Pass the tea" by SLikd

SLikd is my cuz Omar's boy and Niques fellow rap artist, anyway long story short this vid maker heard the song and hit up SLikd to do a vid for it.. first thing U think is amateur maker ehh its gonna be ok right ? ..yea I thought the same, I was thoroughly impressed by how the vid was done enjoy !

Pass The Tea from Rahkeem Supreme on Vimeo.

Birthday Lyricism

Just. A. Never. Ending. Love [lyrics]

[verse]

This is for you baby do it till im burned out

just know that you’re the only girl I wanna learn bout

the one I care for never throw concerns out I apologize for lies and how it turned out.

Ive accused you of being influenced but whenever I do it I panic and hope to get thru it,

J.ust A. N.ever E.nding L.ove know that I knew it n now I show it so u know I persue it… I do it.

Tired of never seeing you baby can we call a truce ?

you got me sippin im addicted baby Olive Juice…

but your sad I know I am why, just know Im sorry love truly baby IMY

so Janel Im persistent for the us again, but if it don’t happen well I hope this made you blush again

Yeah ! got me feelin goofy Iono,

but happy birthday love and this is how it go…

[chorus]

Baby, you my everything, you all I ever wanted
We can do it real big, bigger than you ever done it
You be up on everything, other hoes ain't never on it
I want this forever, I swear I can spend whatever on it

'Cause she hold me down every time I hit her up
When I get right I promise that we gonna live it up
She make me beg for it till she give it up
And I say the same thing every single time

I say you the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the fucking best, you the fucking best
You the best I ever had, best I ever had
Best I ever had, best I ever had, I say you the fucking

Reminder..

LMAO this video reminds me of my friends and I.. always snappin jokes and gettin at each other haha.. btw slaughterhouse is the truth !!

My mistake and Horror..

I never once in my life percieved as a "player" or untrustworthy till i met goof.. It seems like whenever bad shit happens around us it just so happen to prove what was predicted of me.. I made a mistake and I feel sorrowful for my actions.. all I can say is Im sorry till Im given the time to prove that I really am.. i might not even get that chance but im not gonna rule out the fact that i pray to god she see's I made a mistake and that little dumb hoes like that dont matter..


its like I went to seek counceling today asking a different variety of people on their opinion and what i should do to show her how i really feel..

I ask Tammy a bar tender at my job what she would do in the situation..

Tammy says you should keep telling her your sorry till she forgives you and realiles u made a mistake and ur sincere about it.. ive done that and she forgave but called me minutes later to say she dint want anything to do with me.. I dont know what to do at this point..

She cries about why treat her like a kid why keep her in that forum.. well to be honest u do some childish shit.. twittering about the dumb bitch ? twittering and mocking what i did for you earlier in the night ? I know i deserve to be insulted by u for what I have done wrong but for you to mock me ? state something thats not true ? makes me question if i was some just guy u passed on..

ive never broken down like this in my life and its one painful experince with me.. I told her I care and love her and I wanna prove to her im true.. what more can I say.. as the great jay-z would say.. I love you and i told u i dont wanna lose you.. you make my days brighter just seeing you smile yes i did something wrong and i tell u im sorry but Im not gonna sit here and be insuted with nursery comebacks and not have anything to say about it.. yes i will lower my pride for u because i love you but not to the point where you walk over me..

P.s I love you..


I just hope you find it in yourself that what I say is true and let me prove that Im the guy you thought I was bar none..

always..

-mics

Calmer heads prevail..

After a night where I completely let out what was inside of me to a friend I felt better and more lax about the whole situation that Im in.. my friend read what I wrote about yesterday and she just told me that I feel incomplete in what I have well she was almost correct only thing she missed was that the person that felt incomplete was Goof.. I stated everything to her what happened what is going on and she gave me some food for thought on what I should do in the situation.

A) She says if Im truly at a peace of mind leaving the situation where it is and placing a shell over myself to shy away from the situation then I'd be a hypocrite to what I try preach to my other half.

B) You can birate her.. show her your a better person and show her she fucked up.. but thats just not my style.

C) Be the bigger person and talk to her no matter how wrong she or I were to each other. She says if I do really care for someone as much as I state I do.. I shouldn't let something so small derail me from what I truly believe..


Well lets just say a few minutes ago I went with option C.. Im frustrated and I do want something real something strong thats what I want.. She told me the other night that there was something missing.. She said I was perfect and that Im always there and everything is covered.. but why something missing ? ..as I read her blog since I havent been on for the longest time.. she states "I cant trust him" if thats the problem Im willing to work on that aspect of why she cant trust me Im ready to do down hard if lord need me be..


thanks amanda !! i needed that talk last night also mr.bueno thanks alot !! for helping me through.. kinda councel me about it lol

Update 2009

Whoa ! feels like forever since I have stated something on here.. actually it has been forever haha, First and foremost I just wanna let u the reader know that Im still alive and well, and if u wish otherwise of me like many of u do.. sorry to disappoint u =]

Well First things first I made the trip to the Philippines at the end of may till early june for the first time in a little over 3 years(longest Ive gone without going home) I miss my family already in the Philippines and all my cousins aunts uncles and grandparents. Thank you all for showing my family and I a great time as usual whenever we make our way out there. As you may have known Ive been dating a certain someone for quite sometime now and Its been great =] except for the part where i called here to say Hi and she drops a bomb shell on me thats shes joining the air force.. thats all fine and well and thats not what im irritated over its more because she dint even tell me she was thinking about it neither discussed it with me.. Me.. the person she "Loves" ? hmmmm fishy things.. but hey what could I do about it being 8000 miles away throw a fit and ruin my trip ? sike ! haha

I got back to a wonderful coming home from friends and family early in june.. 1st thing I went to do was go see Goof and to see how she was doing everything went well for about 1 week or so then we had our first fight ahhhh the happiness of relationship life doesnt always carry a positive aura around them. About a week later we went on a break for the first time because she told me she wasnt ready for a relationship.. which she clearly did state to me in the begining.. But ten why sucker me into being in a realtionship with you if thats not what U wanted ? her response.. "I dont wanna lose you" thats lovely I guess ? I knew from the begining she dint want anything with me because it took her friend and not her own decision to be with me, Yes your all probably wondering who the friend is but im gonna keep that to myself and goof.. Thanks by the way jackie for that ;]

We're on a break a second time and do you know what we fought about this time ? because she says Im trying to change her lol yea.. just for the record when we argue its like a person talking to air or maybe jesus ? you never get any response from the other.. I'll let you decide on whos role is whos.. and then she goes "I feel like your my parent" well hellfuckinglo if you said something instead of shutting the fuck up there maybe this would be something else rather than this shit! She forced herself to try and love and and hey i guess thats deserves aplause cause atleast there was effort there.. "ergo" the need for a golf clap.

So one night I take her to Musashi to go eat and talk shit out.. everythings well and she says shes going to work on bettering herself toward me.. after dinner at musashi i drop her off at her car parked at a gas station somewhere in chinatown.. before she does I ask her.. "call me when you get to scott's house k ?" she replies "ok" ..she doesnt call and then she twitters "havent heard from mav all day, wish he would call more" lol do you see something wrong here ? yea i know clipse that shit ! "u too" So already after we've talked not ever minutes after she messed up already.. but thats shit is little just let that shit go ya know ?

So I invite her over cause we havent seen each other in a few days cause of work and our schedules.. we go out to eat cause shes hungry and everything is cool.. usual us just messing around having a good time and talking about what were gonna do later which is usually stay the night at her house like she normally asks me to. We come back from dinner and look up movie times to go see a flick later on that night and while doing tha we were browsing through her pictures in her mac book.. and while going through some I throw a little "jab" if you would call it that by saying "gosh some of your friends make me look smaller" I had no intention of making fun of anyone wholeheartedly.. shes already mad at this point but doesnt show it or tell me as usual.. we get in the car and she lets out and tells me whats wrong but as usual i have to fucking force it out of her like im trying to rob someone ! so the whole way to the movies I appologize and tell her "it will NEVER happen again" and when I say that she knows i mean never again ! she still keeps jawing about it cause she thinks I dont have the right to say that.. I guess.. But just few nights before she was dissing her friend hard !! from my phone and her friend thought it was me for a sec until she told him it was her.. lol what sucks is her friends dont even like me.. her sister never had a good feeling about me and some friends as well but I cant help what they feel ya know ? I just do me and try to prove to them that Im not what they think.. So we go to the movies and I walk ahead of her instead of being the gentleman than Im =] I go ahead and go to the movies and meet her there 5 mins later.. we go in the theatre and i pull the armbar down because im this point im ticked off ! she goes "o so you mad at me now ?" i reply with HER usual reply.. "its whatever" we sit through the whole movie without saying a word to each other.. we get out of the theatre and I again I walk ahead of her.. this time she goes "can you please walk with me" I try to until we get downstairs where I headed to the sportsbook for a bit..

We meet each other in the car and Im still giving her the "no talking" shit she gives me whenever we argue.. (she starts getting frustrated) she ask where are we going now ? I go "I dont know its whatever" shes ticked evern more and finally decided to take me home.. she was asking which way to go and the whole way i reply with "I dont know its whatever" she is almost over the edge and for those of you thinking Im being a dickhead at this point you have to understand.. she does this to me all the time and I just wanted her to get a taste of her own medicine.. We get to my house and still no words exchanged.. She tries to talk to me and I dont say anything on purpose just to see how she would react.. she gets out of the car and says "im gonna get your sis to get you" shes popped at this moment.. I ask her "it doesnt feel good does it ?" you know what her reply was ? .."its whatever" lmao almost comical right ? obviously it wasnt whatever because actions speak louder than words.. We get in her car again and I drive off for us to talk.. and wow what a Suprise same scene all over again whenever we argue.. you get the picture ? she says we need a break again ? I reply "I cant be with someone that runs away from the issue or problem everything it surfaces" I told her if thats what she really wants so be it.. She wants the break to "better herself". On the drive again back to my house I reply with "If we break I dont nothing to do with you, first off you tricked me in being in this shit! and now this.. If we break to better yourself.. do it for your god damn self but dont come back ! you cant fix something that requires 2 people" as we pull up to my house I ask "Is there anything you wanna say before I go?" she replies "what do you want me to say ?"

I reply.. Stopping this break would be a good start but you obviously dont have that in your DNA ! I get out and close the door without looking back.. I get in the house say hi to moms and tell her i need to get out to get a drink i grabbed some cd's and from there went to my car to drive of to matts to meet him.. but as I go out I see goofs car still outside.. was she crying ? thinking about things ? idk she had tint so I couldnt really tell.. theres 2 scenarios that could've happened.. she could have thought about things and was she making a mistake or it couldve been she just really doesnt want anything to do with me.. either way.. Ive spoke my peace..

Im here she knows everywhich way to get a hold of me but I cant take this shit of lies and trickery. I can be civil and talk if need be wanted but thats her move not mine all she has to do is "open her mouth"

ahhhh an update turned into a vent session ! dammit !! thanks for reading everyone ! much love !!

My throats tight !!!

my time here in the philippines has been awesome in all kinds of ways, but everytime something good happens to me something always seems to creep up on me, i started realizing that a positive is always accompanied with a negative no matter how much of a positive thinker you are.. i realized this when i was about 18 years of age.. everytime ive had something good happen to me theres always a negative to pull it down. my latest is me here having the time of my life and doing everthing humanl possible to enjoy myself and its been great ! the downside ? ..i guess its not much of a downside but more of a sadness. i called goof maybe 4 or 5 days ago and she had something to talk to me about.. cut the long story short she enlisted in the air force.. its a great thing for her and i happy to hear that shes made the decision to better herself and secure a future for herself !! but the sad part is me realizing when i was here in the philippines how much she really means to me and that i miss her everyday i dont get to see her.. its been almost 2 weeks and at the end of the 3rd ill make my way home to see her and finally be reunited with her again. but the bomb she dropped on me that morning when i called her was heavy.. i had not any idea that she was even thinking about enlisting.. and now shes officially signed on, kinda sucks cause dint get to have any say about it.. it sucks even more knowing that when i come back will be the last few months that ill have with her before she embarks on her long journey.. i miss her alot already and the news of her signing up and being away from me after a while when i get back makes me miss her even more.. life is full of tough pills to swallow i guess.. this is by far one of the toughest.. i havent even swallowed the pill so its kinda hard to digest something you havent chose to swallow yet..

Missing you..

Its 6:53 Im headed to the airport getting ready to depart to LA.. and from there its on to Narita, Japan then Manila Finally... See you all soon.. especially..