Happy Face

Hi for those of you that dint know I have been seeing someone these past 3 or 4 months now, shes friend, a person that somehow knew how to open me up without her knowing it. 3 or 4 months ago my personal situation was in shambles I had a job working 1 or maybe 2 days a week living of paychecks sometimes less than a hundred dollars ! I wasnt nearly as visible to my friends as Im now but 3 or 4 months ago this beautiful person stepped into my life a second time, was it god that was in her talking to me ? I just know ever since she did step into my life my life has turned for the better in every which way ! I've got a great job, my spiritual life has never been stronger in connection and my family life has definitely taken a turn for the better ! having her around me always made me think there was nothing else that existed when we were in each other arms.. its a feeling I havent felt in so long..

part 2

"Let fly away, and if it lands back at your window its meant for you"

Whats so painful is that now that I have everything situated there's something missing in my puzzle.. that someone is the girl I've been seeing for the past 3 or 4 months.. back then she did want something for th both of us and I dint want to at the time because I wasn't ready because of my circumstance and what sucks is that now that Im ready to commit myself she doesn't feel the same way that I do now lmao ahhhh crazy how life goes I guess.. She is my best friend after all this and Im fine with that.. who knows maybe someday something might happen but for now I have to sit here writing this feeling a pain in my chest I haven't felt in a long time.. call it melodramatic call it what you wish.. I really haven't felt this way about anyone in a long time.

I miss you goof !



Thanks for helping me build myself back up to the person I know I can be ! =]

P.S this is what I meant when we were texting earlier this afternoon =]