My throats tight !!!

my time here in the philippines has been awesome in all kinds of ways, but everytime something good happens to me something always seems to creep up on me, i started realizing that a positive is always accompanied with a negative no matter how much of a positive thinker you are.. i realized this when i was about 18 years of age.. everytime ive had something good happen to me theres always a negative to pull it down. my latest is me here having the time of my life and doing everthing humanl possible to enjoy myself and its been great ! the downside ? ..i guess its not much of a downside but more of a sadness. i called goof maybe 4 or 5 days ago and she had something to talk to me about.. cut the long story short she enlisted in the air force.. its a great thing for her and i happy to hear that shes made the decision to better herself and secure a future for herself !! but the sad part is me realizing when i was here in the philippines how much she really means to me and that i miss her everyday i dont get to see her.. its been almost 2 weeks and at the end of the 3rd ill make my way home to see her and finally be reunited with her again. but the bomb she dropped on me that morning when i called her was heavy.. i had not any idea that she was even thinking about enlisting.. and now shes officially signed on, kinda sucks cause dint get to have any say about it.. it sucks even more knowing that when i come back will be the last few months that ill have with her before she embarks on her long journey.. i miss her alot already and the news of her signing up and being away from me after a while when i get back makes me miss her even more.. life is full of tough pills to swallow i guess.. this is by far one of the toughest.. i havent even swallowed the pill so its kinda hard to digest something you havent chose to swallow yet..